a short list of things:

Re:Heroes
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!omfgfixynowandstop allofyou.


I like smoking cigarettes, however, I know that it's awful terrible bad for me, and I can do without it. 1 two days ago, about 1 yesterday, none today. Maybe a drag a lil later, but so far, so good.

kiwi strawberry propel water is surely the nectar of the gods.

American Idol is tomorrow. Two people are getting voted off. I pick Phil and Lakeisha. Then Chris Richardson. After that they can all stay and win together. I love Blake and Jordin and Melinda. Big lots.

Yesterday I learned that just because a boy is prettier than you is no reason to hate him. It was an important lesson to learn.

Polo is a keen little place. I think mayhaps again some time.

Current Mood: silly

what am i going to lose today besides my lunch?

i hate being sick.

and that's really the least of it.

Current Location: futon
Current Mood: sick and miserable
Current Music: nitten purrs

[x] I know how to make a pot of coffee.
[x] I keep track of dates using a calender.
[x] I own more than one credit card.
[] I know how to change the oil in my car.
[x] I do my own laundry.
[x] I vote every election.
[x] I can cook for myself.
[x] I think politics are exciting.
[] I balance my checkbook.
[x] My parents have better things to say than my friends.
Total: 8

[] I show up for school/work early everyday.
[x] I always carry a pen in my pocket/purse.
[] I have never gotten a detention.
[] I have never smoked a cigarette.
[] I have never gotten completely trashed.
[] I have forgotten my own birthday at least once.
[] I like to take walks by myself.
[x] I have watched talk shows.
[x] I know what ‘credibility’ means without looking it up.
[x] I drink coffee at least once a week.
Total: 4

[x] I know how to do the dishes.
[x] I can count to 10 in another language.
[x] When I say I am going to do something, I do it.
[x] My parents trust me.
[] I can mow the lawn.
[x] I can make adults laugh without being stupid.
[x] I remember to water the plants.
[x] I study when I have to.
[] I pay attention at school/college.
[x] I remember to feed my pets.
Total: 8

[x] I can spell “experience” without looking it up
[] I work out on a regular basis.
[x] I clean up my own mess.
[X] The people at Starbucks know me by name.
[] My favorite kind of food is take out.
[] I have gained weight since middle/high school.
[] The first thing I do when I wake up is get caffeine.
[x] I can go to the store without getting something I do not need.
[x] I understand political jokes the first time they are said.
[x] I can type quickly.
Total: 6

[x] I have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour.
[] My only friends are from my place of employment.
[] I have been to a Tupperware party.
[x] I have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[x] I have more bills than I can pay.
[] All my friends are older than I am.
[x] I can say no to staying out all night.
[x] I use the internet every day.
[] My wardrobe has not changed in a while.
[x] I can read a book and actually finish it.
Total: 6

apparently I am 32.

huh. or at least i will be when i get married? fuck that.

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Current Mood: sick

every once in a while i'll dream of a boy i haven't met. in dreams, you know who people are, right? I know him.. and in these dreams i'm in love with him and he's in love with me. he hasn't been around in a while, and i miss him. but it's bigger than that... in my mind anyway.

he seems so real. like, he's not a super hunky vampire-wizard-abercrombie model-type-surreal-brad pitt-dream boy. he's the kind of guy i almost invariably end up going for. tall, thin, cute-sweet-looking-and-acting boy with a smile.

i can't help wondering if he's real, has he had the same dreams? it's really surreal and everything, to think that you're sharing dreams with someone you don't even know. as if to ask myself: are we waiting for each other?

i really do miss him, though. he's just right. maybe that's just it... a figment of my imagination, and a reality that i seek out but never find, subconciously of course. i don't walk up to cute, tall, thin guys for the chance that maybe they're that boy.

i wish the idea of him being real, and him having the same dreams and everything were real, or even realistic. i probably know better and everything, but its one of those things that feels so good to dream that can anyone really help wishing it were real?

Current Location: Mana room
Current Mood: wishful
Current Music: Coheed and Cambria "Wake Up"

Dear Everything,

I'm very nervous about life. I'm clearly not the best communicator that there is, and that is scary when I am about to move in with two of my best friends.

I know that I have time, but I don't really. Not when I never get to talk to them unless they are calling to tell me that something in the plan has changed. And then I react to it... but I don't know what else to do really... because I like plans, and clean lines and easy ideas, and I don't like being let down. I'm terrified that we're gonna hate each other. I'm afraid I'm going to mess up everything. I'm really beside myself about leaving home when I'm the only one of the three of us who hasn't yet.

Sure, we know we'll be okay to throw a party...

...do we know we'll be okay to buy a couch, or clean, or agree on some kind of house thingy, and how bad to i lose cause i don't know what i'm talking about? What if it's bad? and how come it's so easy to say "no worries" but not so easy to believe it... why does every compromise only sound good at first... and why isn't it ever really a compromise as much as it is being convinced to do it differently than you want to?

So, everything, if you could please chill the fuck out and stop scaring me, I would appreciate it.

-AEC

i dunno when i updated last, and it's been longer, for the most part since i've read anything...

so what shall i say?

oof. i've gotten an ass-kicking this year. i've learned a lot, all of which i need to know, not all of which i enjoy knowing. a sign of a successful year, i suppose.

chronicles of narnia made me cry a real lot. at least it was crying contributed to a good cause, rather than to my own manic freak out festivals.

Current Mood: overwhelmed
Current Music: Relient K "Be My Escape"

You are a Social Conservative (36% permissive) and an... Economic Conservative (61% permissive) You are best described as a: Centrist Link: The Politics Test on OkCupid Free Online Dating Also: The OkCupid Dating Persona Test

i should really start sleeping at home again. i should really make new friends. i should really delete my myspace account so that ugly guys will stop hitting on me.

i wonder whether or not i'll end up doing any of those things.